WOW, its been a while!

Sure has been a while. A lot has been happening in this crazy life. Kids are growing, activities keeping us all busy. I ventured into a new business opportunity getting me out of the house and into a whole new world. Its been up and down and in and out, but I wouldn't change a bit of it.

I hit my weight loss goal.... and then it hit back. I am up a bit from where I thought I wanted to be. Lost sight of what my goal was.... but learned that the number on the scale doesn't define me and wont confine me. That was a huge step for me.

The "skinny" I think I want to be, and the "skinny" I think I will be are 2 totally different definitions. My smaller clothes fit, down 5-6 sizes from where I started, so really I cant complain! I still see all my flaw areas however I think that is the woman in me. I will always see the flaws before the beauty. I ask myself often, "Just how long is it til I SEE the "ME" in the mirror?!?!" Do you ever do that? What or Who do you see when you look in a mirror?

Having 2 young girls in the house I have to be careful with my often harsh observations of myself. I learned recently that a girl's self esteem peaks at age 9.... AGE 9?!?! Really??? Crap! My oldest daughter is 11 and my younger daughter turns 9 this summer!!! AAAAAHHHHHH!!! What have I said, done, taught them??? That was a frightening reality for me. As I thought back to when I was 9 it started making a lot of sense. I have fought the argument of my value since I was young. Ok, so its reality... reality sucks... so how do we change it?

I know, a lot of questions today... but I think it all relates to this journey and how we can make a change in ourselves and in our futures. Til next time ladies... some skinny food for thought.